It's a question

Of loyalty.

It is such a priceless commodity, a hidden treasure unearthed in the most unlikely of people and sources? Valued and also incredibly underrated. And incredibly hard to find true loyalty.

Of trust.

Being trusting, overly so, can be detrimental to your health. A healthy distrust on the other hand, means not being able to relax. I like to give people that I don't know well the benefit of the doubt. So far it hasn't gotten me anywhere. But it doesn't mean I'm gonna stop even if it seems the easier or wiser alternative.


Of selflessness.

Everyone is selfish. correction. Everyone in my life has been selfish. Being selfish is sometimes a good thing, cos you need to look after yourself as well as others. It seems ironic, but doing too much to help people out means you end up being the person that needs the most help.


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Hurt.
Nine inch nails dropping slowly
I stare fixedly, awaiting, fascinated, unnerving
Imagining the sensation
The digging into my skin, mine flesh.
Inches, millimetres, moments.
The pain, the misery, the loathing.

I blink.
There is always a way out of this mess we're in.
There's an exit for one, but a better one for two.