feelin philosophical

The last few days have been non-events for me. Not much going on, not much doing. I feel like I'm treading water.

I've spent a bit more time with Joan and that's made me feel good. Otherwise, not much. All the action happens this weekend- moving house into a room that is itself shite, but I'm hoping that it is everything else that comes with the room that makes it good. This ranges from things like awesome cable internet (compared to shite adsl that I have to put up with atm), platinum foxtel, to other things such as travel time to work (hopefully minimal traffic), and being able to spend more time with Joan, even if it's just snatching an hour here and there.

Moving house and changing jobs are two things that don't happen all that often in one's life- although I suppose that depends on your industry and career choice. I feel it won't happen many times for me. The expense involved in changing this is like changing cars- don't do it too often cos it's just a waste of money.

Things come and things go. I'm beginning to realise that alot of the time friends do as well. And it's sad. The people that truly value you, and the people that you value, are often very different people altogether. I wish it wasn't like that in my life.

There's an old expression, that you should be able to count the number of true friends that you have in your whole life, on one hand. There's also a modern take on that- for every 100 friends a person has on facebook, they probably only truly have 2 friends. Well, by that count, I would have 4.6 (I suppose round that up to 5, or have 4 friends and know an infant). One hand.

Beginning to think, who are the people I'm always calling to contact, and who are those that take the time to text or call me? The people that I cared about, and the people I thought cared about me, yeah, it's different people.

In times of hardship you see who your true friends are, and you see their true colours. I don't know my colour, but the people that have my back- I've always preferred the company of a few to the company of many. Suppose that's lucky.

But it all doesn't matter. To be loved, and to love. That's much more important.

I love you. I love you for trying your best. Let's grow together.