Bestfriend

[Musiq] Nowadays I don't understand
Why my love doesn't love me like she used to before
Now lately the sun just doesn't shine and my paradise is gone

Cause most of the time
We argue and fight
Over things that doesn't really matter
Lord knows that I tried
To give all my love
So what should I do?

[Carol] You got to understand it's all about give and take
You can't be so demanding
Things won't always go your way
If you just give it time
And think about her feelings
Then things will work out fine
Learn to make her your best friend

[Musiq] I hear what you saying but my girl she's always
Complaining and and blaming me for things I'll never do
And I don't know what, what it is that I did that was
So wrong to make her feel I'll ever be untrue to her

Cause most of the time
We argue and fight
Over things that doesn't really matter
Lord knows that I tried
To give all my love to her
What should I do?

[Carol]
You got to understand it's all about give and take
You can't be so demanding
Things won't always go your way
If you'll just give it time
And think about her feelings
Then things will work out fine
Learn to make her your best friend

See what you need to do is stop catching attitudes
And just try to take the time to hear her out
Stop being so defensive and try to be more attentive to
Show her you respect what she's talkin' 'bout
Cause you know how us women can be and when we
Feel threatened we react instinctively
When our emotions have grown to its high
We can tend to just let it control
Our lives

[Musiq] Well all right I'll try next time I'll try a little tenderness
Even make sure that I give her more complements
Maybe I could practice on being more patient
And compromise for my baby yeah yeah.

[Together]
If you want her in your life
Then you got to be willing to try
See it's worth the struggle
Cause in the end she will always
Be your best friend yeah.

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Cos I love you
And I never want to stop trying for you
I want to be your best friend.

Your blog just saved us.

fatigue and M.I.A

Relationships are about give and take.

I don't mind giving, but...

:(

I'm missing me.

A To and the Fro

Here is the to. 2

And here is the fro, as promised.

it's just a game

..but our relationship isn't.

We're more similar than we think. So I understand where you're coming from. And I still love you.


Two of a kind, with a little growing up to do..

low

Gravity is working against me,
And gravity wants to bring me down.


I wish you could help, but I don't think that's where the answer lies. I'm sorry.

Just keep me where the light is.

Feeling like you're not part of anything. It's a bad feeling to have.

Shake it off.

The grass is greener on the other side but it's such a long way uphill.

My load is so heavy.

I. want. this feel.ing. to end.

feelin philosophical

The last few days have been non-events for me. Not much going on, not much doing. I feel like I'm treading water.

I've spent a bit more time with Joan and that's made me feel good. Otherwise, not much. All the action happens this weekend- moving house into a room that is itself shite, but I'm hoping that it is everything else that comes with the room that makes it good. This ranges from things like awesome cable internet (compared to shite adsl that I have to put up with atm), platinum foxtel, to other things such as travel time to work (hopefully minimal traffic), and being able to spend more time with Joan, even if it's just snatching an hour here and there.

Moving house and changing jobs are two things that don't happen all that often in one's life- although I suppose that depends on your industry and career choice. I feel it won't happen many times for me. The expense involved in changing this is like changing cars- don't do it too often cos it's just a waste of money.

Things come and things go. I'm beginning to realise that alot of the time friends do as well. And it's sad. The people that truly value you, and the people that you value, are often very different people altogether. I wish it wasn't like that in my life.

There's an old expression, that you should be able to count the number of true friends that you have in your whole life, on one hand. There's also a modern take on that- for every 100 friends a person has on facebook, they probably only truly have 2 friends. Well, by that count, I would have 4.6 (I suppose round that up to 5, or have 4 friends and know an infant). One hand.

Beginning to think, who are the people I'm always calling to contact, and who are those that take the time to text or call me? The people that I cared about, and the people I thought cared about me, yeah, it's different people.

In times of hardship you see who your true friends are, and you see their true colours. I don't know my colour, but the people that have my back- I've always preferred the company of a few to the company of many. Suppose that's lucky.

But it all doesn't matter. To be loved, and to love. That's much more important.

I love you. I love you for trying your best. Let's grow together.

quote, unquote

I want your kisses in the morning, yeah
to let me know that everything will be alright
I wanna touch you every night before I go to sleep
to let you know that everything will be just fine

Whenever you're happy,
it makes me happy
I wanna be there for you
and do whatever makes you smile..

- Anthony David, "Ain't Good Enough For Me"

love is..

..when your boyfriend walks out of the cinema with you just because you're too scared to watch the rest of the film, even though he really wanted to see the movie and even though he paid for both tickets.

natural light, get it off!

Being self-imposed housebound for the last week or so has sucked. Illness is such a chore; it consumes so much of your energy, spirit and willpower to do things, your enthusiasm to shine, your ability to to break out and carpe diem and all that. I've just wanted to lie in bed, migrate to the PC, and headed out to the grocery store to stock up on soup. Lots of it. The Heinz Very Special range is surprisingly good! For $3 a can, can't go wrong.

I used to get over colds and flus really quickly as a kid. Couple of days tops and bam, back in it. I used to wear shorts to school and it'd be like 4-5 degrees and foggy. Now it seems I can't shake off colds for at least a week no matter what I try. I don't know why.

One of the "positive" aspects of being sick, I suppose, is that I've lost a bit of weight. I'm reminded of the so-called celebrity "diet" where in order to lose a few pounds people intentionally ate under-cooked chicken/pork to get e-coli or salmonella poisoning. A few days of diarrhoea, maybe a little vomiting, and voila, down a dress size. IDIOTS.

In this day and age of instant celebrity and the multitude of ways to get it- reality TV, being a blogstar/youtube star eg. Perez Hilton, I have to take a step back. Why do we worship these people so much? And why do their opinions on completely random topics carry so much weight?
And why are there so many trashy magazines dedicated to getting snaps of celebs looking 'ugly' for when they just want to go down the store and buy some bread and milk for chrissakes?

An example that comes to mind is Kanye West. A true celebrity because he is recognised for his talent- beatmaking and rapping. Never get it twisted- he is a beatmaker and producer first and foremost. I love his style. In a recent mixtape he released before Graduation was dropped, he recounts how someone asked him in an interview, whether he would vote for Barack Obama or Hillary Clinton in the Democratic candidacy.

Why ask him? I guess it's interesting to know different things about celebrities, know more about their lives than just what they're famous for, sure. To just get his opinion on an issue that affects the American nation, sure. But if at that moment he says the wrong thing, it'll get blown out of context and become a scandal, because he's a celebrity. It's like, as a celebrity must be able to keep right on the pulse of everything. Because you're a celebrity, you must know EVERYTHING about EVERYTHING. Your opinion is instantly more informed, more wise, more intelligent. You've become a god. But wtf.

Kanye goes on to say, well, I'm just interested in doing projects that are exciting and interesting to him. I don't really know that much about politics to make an informed statement. Good on him. Common sense prevails. Sure it's interesting to read what he'd have to say. But it's only his opinion in a field where he has no further advantages or insight than say, my hairdresser. My hairdresser ain't known all round the world, but her political opinion is probably more informed than Kanye's. So why aren't her passionate anti-Bush anti-McCain views a nationwide scandal?

PS> Has anyone else thought of putting Jon McCain's face on the McCain chips? That'd be funny.